All sense of loss comes from the false sense of possession. -Buddha.
Let's start with this sentence. First of all, why do I want to possess someone when I don't like to feel that someone is possessive over me? We know why, don't we? It's the ego, the feeding of the ego. How can it be that I feel like someone free, and then I want to have control over another person? It's just not fair.
This definitely needs to be modified positively and harmoniously. I started writing now because I noticed that I receive messages from other people, either wishing me good morning, or inviting me out at some point during the week.
I answer out of politeness, out of friendship, however, I know deep down that it's not like that, that I do it because I'm afraid of getting hurt, as if it's some kind of competition to see who can do it first, to see who does it first. But here the question is, why did I start to feel this way before? The predisposition is to summon it and then it comes to life, like the phrase "we are what we think".
Well, my friend Olga, that girl full of wisdom (she is my Virgo sister too) used to say it to me. And she is absolutely right, she was not the only one who said it to me, however, now the more I repeat it to myself, the more it makes sense and the calmer it is.
At the end of the day, it's everyone's life and path and I should and want to focus on mine. We all came into this world alone and alone we will go. The path is individual, and the teaching and understanding are personal work. The physical body is the one that requires the attention and company of others which distracts us from our objective.
Ironically, when my therapist made me understand that partners come because there is an affinity with us, they bring a gift, that is, teaching, I began to realize at certain times that the things I notice in my partner are things that I also do and I do not like to be done to me, that is, it is a reflection of what needs to be changed in myself.
My therapist says that my degree of consciousness is advancing and is getting bigger and bigger, which makes me happy because in this way I can control my emotions at the moment that some crisis is happening, take control and take it simple, here the only one who accepts the poison is me. I decide if I let it affect me or if I just let it flow and let life take its course. I definitely surrendered yesterday, to this situation, to everything. I said enough and left everything in God's hands.
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Gre ❤
